change.

I am about to whine. I am giving you a heads up, so brace yourselves.

I don't know who I am anymore. I feel like I'm stuck in this freaking bubble and I cant get out. I'm suffocating, I cant breathe. I feel like I'm drowning. I feel like not me. Am I losing my mind? Have I lost my mind? or worse, have I lost myself?

 I know myself pretty good. I think I know most parts me. I think. I am this bubbly, outgoing, spontaneous girl who loves to eat, read and go out. I hate the heat and the rain, sometimes. I enjoy being alone in my nook while reading or just people watching. I like putting out my outfits before I try them on. I love putting make up on even if I'm just going to stay home and watch crappy TV. I love sports. I used to go and play badminton every other week with my family. I used to go and see and enjoy movies. I used to ENJOY. I used to do a lot of things. I used to do a lot of fun things. I used to. Before. I haven't lost the eating part but the other parts me that I know off are gone. I don't know what happened.

Things change. Everything change. CHANGE IS INEVITABLE.

I don't know if this change in me is doing me good. I hope so.